Robin's Mind

_Holidayyyy_

2010-06-12T05:07:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHH

finally.

end of foundation !

1 year passed just like that. OMG

now just sitting at home. doing some usual stuffs.

feeling lifeless.

_peace

*Dead BLOG*

_Being Mature_

2010-04-20T09:26:00.001-07:00

Alright. firstly im not saying that im matured enough to say so.
i'm just writting out what bothers me.

before i start.
ladies and gents our there,
do you ever thought of this? [probably do]

You : Mummmmy, why can't i be together with ..... i'm already 16 !
Mummy : No, study first. mummy say no means no.
You : why not ??? AHHHH i hate you ,

""
this phrase, do you ever think your mom aren't like this at her age ?
even if she do, why doesn't she let you do as same as her ?
think again . think think think .
maybe she doesn't want you get cheated , etc etc.

come on.
when your father smoke, you go smoke and you blame your father smoke so you could smoke ? NO WAY man.
for those who thinks this way. please be mature to think further. *no offense to anyone*

elders are more experience in life than you guys.
if you fail your life, and you're trying to save your younger siblings from doing so.
what's wrong with that ? what do we get ? advising you doesn't bring us benefits.
RIGHT ?

another story.

a baby is crawling himself to play with switch [switch that you plug your charger, iron, etc.]
and when he play with it. you hit his small cute little hand and say "NO NO, don't play with it , it's dangerous"
of course the baby doesn't understand.
and the baby continue playing with it.
you hit him harder everytime. until he dare not do so anymore.
in his mind "why can't i play with it?"
i can't play with it, everytime i play with it i'll get hit by my mummy.
when the baby grow up, the baby finally know why.

do remember, 1 phrase
不听老人言，吃亏在眼前

the elders will NEVER let you fall.

unless the elders want you to fall.

If the mummy give up on the baby in 3~4 times.

for example, the baby won't listen and he keep continue to play with the switch.

the mummy give up and let the baby play until he got shock only he learn his lesson?

sorry man, it's tooo late.

think mature, everyone do something for some reason.

no one will do something for no reason.

best regards to ya.

peace

Chinese Neeeeeeeew Year !

2010-02-10T09:03:00.000-08:00

yo everyone !

i'd keep this short and simple x)

For Your Information,

Chinese New Year . Is . Just . Around . The . Corner xD

i'm here wishing all of you ! Chinese New Year ! =)

hope you'll have a great new year !

hope you all be good !

last but not least , hope everyone is healthy =)

thanks for reading !

<3

*Don't Just Think About AngPau La x)

Movieeeeeeeeee

2010-01-23T05:40:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since i update my blog ..
not really in a mood to blog around lol..

BUT !
2010 !
a fresh start =) good luck everyone !

now.. i'd like to talk about "MOVIEEEEEE"

there's soooooooooooo many nice movie lately.. and don't have the time to watch it..
haihz.. been busy dancing, college, hanging out with friends..

don't have time for moviee..!

but ! here's some movie trailers i want you guys to enjoy =)
it's screening right now at GSC ! xD

TOOTH FAIRY ! =)

Legion !

Tiger Woohoo!

i don't have the trailer though.. i think it's a good movie.. and worth to watch =)

Those Movie Trailer Above take sometime to buff =) be patient.. it'll amaze u x)

Enjoy !

Thanks For Reading !

<3

_ Not AGAIN _ [Parents]

2009-12-08T09:02:00.000-08:00

aww.

sometimes i feel that... i like to write about.. life ?
maybe just wanna help out those who maybe are down..
or maybe lost in their lives..

life isn't always perfect..
now.. i'd like to talk about parents..
some of you might think.. parents..
" MY PARENTS SUCKS " " THEY CONTROL MY LIFE "
there are reasons you see..
firstly.. why do u think they control you ?
okay. i do admit.. some.. might be.. 1 out of 100 ? i'm not sure.. thinks their parents have problem.. like releasing stress on them or so on.. but ! do remember.. they brought you to this beautiful life..
right ?
Life isn't life without parents.. life can go and on.. BUT ! as life go on.. people gets older.. your parents might be old enough and can't barely walk.. they sit on the sofa whole day watching Astro.. aww come on.. i will never let my parents live like that.. they've raise me up sooo hard.. and.. they earn $ to get us a better life.. maybe for you.. your life sucks ? if that's what u think.. come and compare.. there are many THOUSANDS or maybe MILLIONS of children want their life to be yours.. you wanna eat.. they'll find a way to fill your stomach.. if you wanna sleep , i don't think they'll slap you up and ask u to be awake.. right ? they'll still get u a bed.. sleep well.. eat well.. that's all.. what do you expect ?

compare to a Africa kid.. sleep on the floor ? searching for food day by day.. maybe don't even have a chance to take a bite of something for 1 whole day.. so WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER ?

i know.. sometimes.. i might feel not good about my life.. but think twice.. mine is always better than someone's.. just hope that.. you all will think about what your parents have sacrifice for u.. appreciate your parents.. who brought you.. in this world..

<3 Mom & Dad <3

thanks for reading.. hope it helps .

_What I Felt_

2009-12-05T05:28:00.000-08:00

sometimes i feel that going out alone.. is something boring..
even if you go shopping.. ALONE.. it's boring isn't it ?
but.. something hit me.. when you feel like going out.. and no one's free..

what can i do ? what will u do ?

i feel like driving alone.. to some place far far away..
where ideas or new thoughts will probably come up in your mind..
for example.. you see a couple sitting at a park..
you'll feel.. when will i get a situation like that ? then you'll think further..
how do i make the girl i love sit with me at a park.. like that.. o.o

sometimes.. it's better to keep your thoughts to yourself than sharing it
[ right ? xD ]
if u say " hey , look at them ! sooooo romantic " if you tell that to your friend..
just maybe.. your friend might feel weird or something.. then his / her thought will think " lol.. it's not like you never see situation like this before "

when you drive and drive.. solution for some of your problems might just pop-up in your mind.. it's like.. when you having a maths problem.. you'll chill and then you might just think about it .. think think think .. then WALLA~ there you go.. you found your solution.. that's what i think..

looking at pictures which is.. 4 years old ? memories.. friends.. 1 by 1.. gone.. old ones are replaced by new ones.. remember those time.. where we play together.. where we went to bkt jalil every friday.. wow.. memories..

i might think.. am i a good guy ? for sure.. someone somewhere will think i'm not a good guy =) everyone is like that... i assure you.. no one on earth will have no people dislike him/her..

even someone you think which is perfect.. maybe for someone else.. that someone is just ZERO.. no one's is perfect.. As a friend.. we remind each other what is our wrong .. if you aren't treated as a friend.. easily.. you won't get comments from your friends.. you'll just get backstab.. if you are treated as a friend.. your friend will remind you.. what's wrong to do so.. if you find that offensive.. think twice.. you'll only be treat so if someone treat you as a true friend..

LIFE.. what is LIFE ? LIFE is about study study study ? then in the future .. grinding grinding grinding for $$ ? life must be enjoyed .. remember.. 1 phrase..

" LIVE LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW "

=)

P/S i love you <3

thanks for reading my WOT [ Wall Of Text ]

hope this will help in your way of life..

_Maple Equips For SALE_

2009-11-29T20:19:00.000-08:00

I'm Selling Maple Equipment =)
Below Are My Equipments ,
i'm from MapleSEA Fornax world.
Selling Along with my ID
Which is. 153 Hero [ 16k Base Hp , With HB 26k ]
Include Equipment Price RM2000 [ I'll Show later ] - With Untradable Equips Such As . Lirin's Ring , Godly Scrolled Scarlion Helm =)

Lirin's Ring

Scarlion Helm

My Equips
=)

Some Screenshot of my Equips x)

=)

You can just buy my equip only x)
Thanks For Reading

You Never Know What I've Been Through My Friend =)

2009-11-10T12:19:00.000-08:00

if you're in my position..
u'll understand =) maybe for you . it's nothing .
come on.. human have feelings right ?
friends are people who accept who you are ?
true.. but why backstab ? since u said that "friends are people who accept who you are"
if backstabbing is what u call "accept" i really really have nothing to say.. think twice =)
one attitude might be a problem , BUT maybe the attitude won't piss someone off ?
another attitude might be a problem , it may piss someone off ?
there are many different type of attitudes. and it really depends whether u wanna correct it or not.. if it's a small matter.. we'll accept it.. BUT if it's a big matter , how are we going to accept it as a friend ?

just my thought , u never been through something . u won't know how it feels.
=)

peace.

_ I Feel Helpless _

2009-11-07T10:27:00.000-08:00

Haihz..

i feel i'm so helplessssss..

i could only see my girl's parents take her phone away..
i could not see her anymore cause her mom resigned..
i could not call her anymore cause her mom will be at home..
i feel so helpless.. only could look at things happen..
if i want to find her.. i can't !
she doesn't have a phone-[confiscated].. can't call her house phone because her parents home..
BUT.. its okay.. i'll always have my phone ready.. when she calls.. [ which means her parents left her house ] i could have a chance to speak to her.. maybe once a day.. maybe none.. i'll always be here.. waiting for you =)

Don't Feel Down..
Don't Feel Sad..
Don't Get Mad..
Because it won't help..
just to let you know.. i'm always here.. inside your heart with you x)

* My Feelings *
* HELPLESS *

=(

_ BackStabber _

2009-11-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

Backstabber may refer to:

* a person or an aide who says positive in front of us but condemns or criticises at the back. A Backstabbers generally have some motive behind which can range from money, work, fun, interest, etc. to hurting you as well.

*Got it from wikipedia x)

Never Backstab someone, if u don't want someone to backstab you.
What goes around , comes around.
You wan someone to treat you good , first learn how to treat someone good.
i've did my part. Did you ?

Tsu Ming taught me
Don't talk bad behind someone. someone will talk bad behind you.

Really True. =)

_Johor Trip_

2009-10-29T00:42:00.000-07:00

i'm Back From Johor yesterday =)
had lots of fun . will be writing more later =)

Okay. Before i went to Johor. we nvr really plan it. we as in [ me and kwok ] then , we decided to visit vivian at Johor in the next morning. so, we woke up early. and we ask BaBa to fetch us to LRT , and we take LRT to Plaza Rakyat and took a bus. we Reach Plaza Rakyat at 8am o.o omg.. the train depart @ 9am.. so.. we waited waited and waited. finally. it's time~ BUT ! i don't see no bus.. o.o then luckily someone is kind enough to tell us where's our bus, our bus is located at another platform x) not sure whose wrong , anyway. Here I Come JOHOR~

When we Arrive there. we sat down at McD and wanna take our lunch.. it was.. around 12noon , then suddenly vivian called and said she reach already , so we take away our lunch and head towards vivian's house =) we ate our lunch at vivian house . later on, we decided to explore~ guess what ? Many Food !! there's food stall every corner of every shop lot >< then, we enjoy ourselves for the first day at johor =)
went for a movie at night ^^ and went back home at 12:30am x) not bad .

The next day, woke up around 11am.. then we pack up. and get ready x) we went to a shop called "Lavender" , expensive BUT nice shop. =) i ate RM43 there ^^ food is nice , service is good.. not bad =) then we head to bus station and get ready to get back to KL.

In the bus , we took pictures !

3 Of Us =)

I'm Changing Colours x)

* Blue *

* Yellow *

* Green *

* Red *

=)

* Thanks For Reading *

_ My Presentation _

2009-10-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

First time presentation so nervous lol =)
today's presentation is talking about anything u like..
BUT , 10 minutes o.o quite long.. and , i've presented the topic "Childhood"
i must overcome not to be nervous.. DAMN .

thanks for reading , although it's short . x)

Have a Great Day _

_ To Mr zzz _

2009-10-01T12:14:00.001-07:00

hi everyone..
since it had been a while the last time i posted..
i decided to post something special right now..
something.. very SPECIAL..
recently , i discovered someone retarded..
if u're wonder who.. refer to my chat box xD
someone name "zzz"
let me explain about him/her :

he/she hates his/her own life..
he/she have no life at all..
he/she is REALLY retarded.. [ as u can see what he/she posted ]
he/she is really a DAMN Coward.. [ i mean.. really x) ]

read at my c-box and u know x)

enjoy reading.. =)
i'm clean.. don't have any doubts regarding about wad he/she had said..

she/he's just someone who wants to destroys life.. as she/he don't have 1..

She/He know himself/herself that it's him/her..

[ If "You" Are Reading This , Don't Forget to leave your name ! =) ]

_ Just For You _

2009-09-28T10:44:00.000-07:00

Just finish my day.. as usual..
before i go to bed..
i lay down..
staring at the ceiling..
wondering..
are you there ? thinking of me ?
i know i do , thinking of you.. the whole time..
day by day..
as time goes by..
the way i miss u.. getting stronger and stronger x)
everyday , i wonder " when could i see you again ? "
hoping to see u as soon as possible..
i had to say..
I Miss You..
as always.. and always will be.. missing you..

my dear pig,
*You Know Who* x)

* Everytime i rush to my bed *
* With hopes that maybe i get a chance to see you,
when i close my eye*
* You could be a sweet dream , or a beautiful nightmare *
* Either way i , Don't wanna wake up from you *

=)

_ Happy Birthday Babe ! _

2009-09-17T11:18:00.000-07:00

here wishing you
HAPPY 16th Birthday !
=)
Good Luck !
Enjoy Life !
Have Fun !
Love ya <3

May Your Wishes Come True ^^

2:19am 18/09/09

_ Tears I Saw _

2009-09-16T08:44:00.001-07:00

Tears was filling your eyes.. i've suddenly remember bout what i promised.. " i won't let u drop a single tear " my heart was so weak at that moment.. it's like looking an angel that cried.. but i'm here to say.. " baby , don't cry.. i'm not crying.. so u don't have to cry too.. *while i'm sobbing in my heart * " take care and remember.. i'm always here.. LOVE ya..

<3 My Dear

_Enjoy

_Fcuk Food Poisoning_

2009-09-07T05:26:00.000-07:00

Today morning, 7am~ i woke up . the first thing happened to me .. is i vomited.. DAMN ! everywhere also have.. zZz.. i called my mom.. she helped me clean everything.. while she ask me to rest >< then.. after that.. i went to the doctor.. said it's food poisoning ! wtf ? what i ate wrong ? yuan lai is yesterday's dinner.. i cant reveal the place.. it's an old place for my family to eat.. but why ? maybe the kitchen isn't clean that time.. maybe ? then after doctor.. i ate my medicine.. then wanna fill up my tummy.. doctor say can't eat heavy meals.. so i try to eat SODA biscuit.. first biscuit.. then i felt vomiting.. i ran to toilet.. and vomit.. only SODA biscuit.. and vomit air too.. it's very suffering.. then i continue my day at college.. and hang on as it's my first day of 2nd semester..
after i came home.. i slpt til now.. i hate food poisoning !

do Share your experience if u had food poisoning too !
Do leave comments pls and thank you ! <3

_10 Things I'm Trying To Be_

2009-08-29T06:14:00.000-07:00

it's All about my Life~ =)

First of all,
i'm trying my best to be a good son =( i know i'm not.. im trying though =/

2nd,
Trying to become a good grandson.. although im not.. im trying too =/

3rd,
Trying to become a good brother.. although im not.. im trying too =/

4th,
Trying to become a good friend.. although im not.. im trying too =/

5th,
Trying to become a good mapler.. although im not.. im trying !

6th,
Trying to become a good basketball player.. although im not.. im trying =/

7th,
Trying to become a good dota player.. although im not.. im trying !!

8th,
Trying to become a good GunZ player.. although im not.. im trying =(

9th,
Trying to become a good student.. although im not.. im trying [ i hate studying ]

10th,
Trying to become a great BF.. Trying Trying Trying ..

thanks for reading !!
_Remember to leave Comments_

_Techno Songs!_

2009-08-26T23:37:00.001-07:00

Do ya guys like techno songs ? Especially the bass =D enjoy some below !

Credits Doesn't Goes To Me =)

Enjoy The Beat !
Remember to leave comment =D
My Favourite !

_Tired Day_

2009-08-26T09:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , i slpt at 5:30am.. and woke up 9:30am , cuz i have to go to roller skate at carefour.. therefore.. i sleep only 4 hrs.. my leg was DAMN tired.. and then.. skate only for about.. 3hours ++ then i've left.. to join my friends..
we went to a kopitiam in carefore.. then we've left carefore @ 5:30pm becuz randy and vivian have BM class @ 6pm.. kwok , baba and i went to McD to grab a cone sundae.. xD
then we went to baba house.. when reach baba house.. around 6+ i str8 sleep.. omfg.. when wake up.. randy and vivian finished their BM class alrdy.. they've arrived at there alrdy.. so.. we listen to songs.. chit chatting around.. til night time.. then we leave.. b4 we leave.. we took a picture ---> after taking pic.. we wanna eat dinner.. randy went home becuz he duwan to eat.. he said he see me oso full le.. duwan join us.. so me , vivian , baba , kwok go KFC to eat.. after eating.. no where else to go.. we went home..
great day.. but tiring day.. =(

_Enjoy ! Left to Right [ Kwok , Robin , Vivian , Randy , Baba ]

_Last Day Of PDSM Class_

2009-08-19T05:27:00.001-07:00

The last class of my PDSM [Personal Development & Study Method] subject is today.. yes.. hard to believe.. it's today.. it's like a blink of eye.. it's almost the end of 1st Semester.. Today, lunch time.. 11 of us [ me and my classmates ] went to ipoh chicken rice together.. it's the first time the whole bunch of us eat together.. 11 people.. RM160+.. not bad.. after that.. went back to college.. almost 2 hours to PDSM class.. then my friends all went in to a room.. all on their laptops.. guess wad ? they join a same network.. and play counter-strike together.. there 8 people o.o and it's quite fun playing with them.. although i have to use my friend's laptop.. have to queue to play xD thanks to him that he could lent me =) anyway.. after that.. i start my PDSM class.. teacher aren't teaching anything as he thought us everything we need to know.. therefore.. we end earlier as usual.. our class took photos with our lecturer.. after lecturer left.. they gone wild and take photo together too.. photos are shown below

Thanks For Reading =D

_Poor Friend Saktia_

2009-08-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

Very sad to hear.. my classmate.. Saktia.. has just broke her relationship with her boyfriend.. it's not a short period of time.. [ 3 years ] i'm here.. writing this post right now.. cheer her up.. life is way longer than u expect.. cheer up.. there are plenty more good men out there.. don't let someone you hate ruin your own life !
All The Best My Friend . Saktia Panchakaran .

_English Writing Test_

2009-08-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

OMFG ! Come on.. 2 essays with 300-400 words each within 1 and 1/2 hours o.o? Hard ? for me it is.. i started off the essay quite well ^^ [ Topic : Valentine's Day ] but.. after 30 minutes of writing.. i felt something is wrong.. then before entering my conclusion.. i re-check my word count.. and guess what ? i had 400+ words.. i was like 'OMFG'.. i finish the conclusion with " i had a wonderful day and that's my valentine " and yes.. i know it's short and stupid.. but.. it's a back-up essay..
After the first essay.. i've chosen the 2nd essay topic which is in a Memorandum form.. quite simple.. but still it has to contain 300-400 words.. i finished it with 300 words.. then i start with my new essay which is the same topic as the first essay.. 15 Minutes left.. OMG.. i might as well start of with the same thing i've wrote earlier.. then end it with a 'not so good' way.. due to lack of time =( in the end.. i finish it off with 325 words.. hope i can do well =)

_Thanks For READING_ <3

_Causes Of Dota_ [Really Meaningful]

2009-08-15T18:55:00.000-07:00

First Of All.. What Is Dota ? Dota is a famous game among teenagers nowadays..

But, I've read a email this morning.. that hits me directly to my head.. Dota is just a virtual game.. Don't because of it.. you lose your friends.. your family.. and your love ones..
This is the email i've read.. Do read it.. as it helps you understands more..

Dota比赛中场休息，我忙里偷闲用Msn聊天，
这个时间，没有几个人在线，
我与其中的一个女孩聊得来，她告诉我她叫诺儿，
我说我叫宝宝。这当然不是我的真名，只不过这样更容易哄女孩子。
诺儿给我的感觉很单纯，很可爱，她总是呵呵的傻笑。

我今年22岁，他们都说我有病，放着好好的工作不干，去打什么专业Dota，可我是一个自由散漫惯了的人，父母自有高额退休金，我住着自己的公寓。我热爱Dota，我的理想是亚洲冠军，为了它，我可以放弃一切。
我发现诺儿上网很有规律，而我也喜欢和她胡吹乱侃，别的我不敢说，哄小女生我最在行，尤其是诺儿这种单纯的。我喜欢气她，我总说她傻，她就回给我一个气呼呼的小脸，其实我是想说她傻的可爱。

他们说我是网上的害虫，因为我总是哄骗网上的小姑娘走到现实中来做我的女朋友，新鲜劲过了之后在SAY白白。我不是自夸我长得多么帅，我只是在陈述事实。
我知道时机到了，我对诺儿说：“我们见面吧！”在此之前，我已经在网上叫她一个多月的老婆了。

我坐在KFC等她，心中暗自祈祷她不要太恐龙。9点整，一个女孩推门而进，她似乎是披着阳光进来的，好耀眼的光芒，那一刻我以为我见到了天使。
我呆呆地看者她在我对面坐下，她梳着两条小辫子，额前的碎发泛着点点的光晕，我闻得到她身上力士香皂和苹果沐浴乳的味道，她未施粉黛的脸上还带着点稚气。

“你是诺儿？”我问她。

她咬着可乐吸管“恩”了一声。

“你成年了吗？”我怎么感觉自己跟诱骗未成年人一样呢？

诺儿听了这话，抬起头盯者我，她的眼睛很大，她特认真地说：“我下个月就过二十岁生日了。”

我不知道这个世界上有没有一见钟情，但我知道我对诺儿的这种感觉是从未有过的，很强烈，也很独特。我不知道这个比喻是否恰当，但我就是觉得她像个粉嫩嫩的
草莓蛋糕，可爱到让人想咬却又舍不得。我就像被施了法术一般，话都有些说不连贯，恍惚之中，看到她朝我微笑，阳光溢出来，溅落，星星点点。

我用尽了一切我所能想得出的方法才算把她“骗”到手，在我牵起她的手的那一刻，我告诉自己，她是我的女人，一个我要保护的女人。

我照例天天打Dota，但没忘了上msn和她聊天，偶尔在泡几个MM，我几乎天天都能收到她的留言：“宝宝你要乖，不要泡MM，天冷要加衣。”

我们战队顺利地进入了前八强，今天是总决赛，午休，我看着干巴巴的饭盒，没有丝毫食。走出赛区，看见大门口蹲坐着一个熟悉的身影，走过去看是诺儿。我拍拍
她，她显然吓了一跳，见是我，舒了一口气，把一个保温饭煲递到我手里。我接过后，她慌忙把手藏到身后，可是我还是看见她手上被烫的水泡。

盒里的饭有点凉了，我问她：“等很久了了？”

“对啊，你手机关掉了。”她嘟着嘴。

“不是告诉你不要来嘛。来，让老公抱抱，累了吧？”我有点心疼。

“我不来你又饿肚子，你一点都不乖，还挑食。”

我吃着盒里的饭，诺儿坐在我身边，紧张地问：“好吃吗？好吃吗？”我大口大口的扒着饭，说实话，挺难吃的，可是我能想象得出这个连袜子都不会洗的女孩是怎
样笨手笨脚地为我做第一顿饭。心中是久违了的感动。我笑着说：“老婆的爱心午餐当然好吃了，你看我不是全部都吃光了吗？

诺儿听了一脸满足地笑着，站起来就走。

“宝贝你去哪儿啊？”我问她。

“回家呗。“

“别急，我带你去一个地方。”我把她领进赛区，我从没领女孩儿见过朋友，更别说是赛区。队友们见到诺儿都好奇极了，“小嫂子、小嫂子”地叫着，弄得她脸蛋都通红的，队友们都跑来跟我打趣，我心里明白，我是真的爱上她了。

msn上，我问她，“诺儿，你嫁给我好吗？”
她还是呵呵地傻笑，“好啊。以前别人说什么要娶我，我觉得特恐怖，但是我现在突然想嫁人了。” 嗯，诺儿，相信我，等我攒够钱让你做最风光的新娘，我们就结婚。

虽然我们队没有拿到第一，但对于我们这支刚组成不久的队伍来说，全省第二的成绩已经是非常好的了，所以我决定继续努力，非打第一不可。

Dota的比赛越来越多，我也越来越忙，我忘了多久没想过诺儿了，我总是比赛到很晚，偶尔在msn上看到她，她也总是很沉默，我不知道她怎么了。现在想起来，才知道是自己不对，因为我从来没有关心过她是不是开心，过得好不好。

一天，

她说：“你能陪我说会话吗？”

我说：“不行啊，我现在在联系比赛正在等电话。而且马上要开赛了。”

“就一会儿也不行吗？”

“诺儿乖。”

”
“Dota对你来说真的很重要吗？”

“是。”

“那我呢？难道我就一点不重要吗？”

“也重要。”

“那我和Dota哪个更重要呢？”

“Dota。”我没有骗她。

很久，她的msn头像都没有再晃动。

几天后，我看到她给我的留言：“我不知道能不能等到自己比dota更重要的那一天了，以后你要照顾好自己．．．．．．”我觉得她像是在说傻话，没看完就关了msn。

几个月后，打完dota回到家已经是精疲力竭了，倒在床上一动不想动。这时手机响起来，我不想接，可它却响个没完没了。我一看是诺儿的号，就没好气地接起来说：“不是叫你这几天别打电话给我吗？你不知道我有多累……”

电话那一端传来一阵怒吼：“……你他 [ 粗话自动过滤系统 ] 还算不算是男人啊？”

不是诺儿，我一愣，“你谁呀你？”

“你甭管我是谁，明天诺儿出殡，你要也算个人，就来看她最后一眼。”

诺儿？出殡？什么跟什么呀？我还想再问下，电话戛然挂断。

忽然一股恐怖感占据了我，我拼命的回拨，很久才有人接起来，是个很苍老的声音，“你找……”

“诺儿呢？”

“她……不在了……”声音里明显带着哭腔。

我的脑袋轰的一下，难道，诺儿她真的出事了？

哪天，我看见诺儿被他们抬了出来，她脸上还带着微笑，可天使般的微笑再也泛不出光晕了，诺儿的朋友看我的眼神分明是仇视的，恨不得吃了我。诺儿的妈妈告诉
我，诺儿有血小板减少症，家里人什么都不让她做，生怕她不小心弄破了手指或是什么地方，血流不止。原以为治好了，可后来不知怎的，血小板又突然下降，心脏
功能也开始衰竭。前几天她突然精神很好，我们都明白那意味着什么，她说她想听听你的声音，打电话给你，可是关机，她说你一定在比赛呢。有人说去找你，可诺
儿不让，她说比赛对你很重要，她怕你生气，说着说着自己就哭了，我们也都跟着哭，她说肯定有一天你会明白，她比dota重要，可她等不到了……诺儿妈妈有抹起
眼泪来。
我靠在医院太平间的墙上，想哭没泪。
我好几天没打dota了，呆呆地看着诺儿的msn形象，自从诺儿走了以后，我整个人好像被抽走了力量。身和心都特别疲惫。
我打开诺儿的msn才知道，里面只有我一个人的号。

我注意到她的资料里有一个网址，打开是个心情驿站，有各种各样的故事，其中有篇文章的署名是诺儿。

我最近很不开心，我喜欢听他说话，可他却连话都不愿意和我说了，因为他很忙，他要打dota。他再也不叫我小傻瓜了，他从没说过爱我，也没送过花给我，可我还是喜欢他。

有一天我告诉他江边涨水了，他说以后陪我看，我很高兴。有一天我看见一只很可爱的小狗，他答应我，我们以后也会有一只，也叫诺儿，我很高兴。他说过几天陪我去看电影，放风筝，我特别开心，虽然这些都还没有实现，我相信总有一天会的。但我恐怕等不了那么久了。
他说dota比我重要，我没生气，因为这是实话，可是我很伤心，所以我偷偷地哭了。我想我还不够坚强，我做的还不够好，医生说我过不到下一个生日了，也就是4月4日，他还不知道我的生日呢！不过这也没关系。
我又虚弱了，刚打了几个字就很累，真的很没用。

我知道他有很多女朋友，这样也好，我走了，他不会伤心，虽然我是那样想嫁给他，我一直盼他送我玫瑰，哪怕只一支，以前有很多人送我，可我没收，因为那代表
爱情，我想我可能等不到他送我的那一天了，所以我偷偷买了一朵送给自己，我想我写什么他永远都看不见了，所以我可以随心所欲地敲打文字，我刚才打电话给
他，但他关机了。那个讨厌的声音一直重复‘对不起，您拨打的电话已关机’。我好想，真的好想再和他说说话，哪怕就一分钟，听听他的声音也好，我们好久都没
见面了，我每天都好想他。真没出息，又哭了，唉，其实我真的好放心不下他，他玩游戏时间长了眼睛会疼，我买了眼药水却没法给他，还有，他挑食……”

文章没有写完，想是她累了，结尾有一个FlasLASH，我点击Play，

优雅的声音在空空的房间里回荡。

“静静地陪你走了好远好远/
连眼睛红了都没有发现/
听着你说你现在的改变/看着我依然最在你的笑脸/
这条旧路依然没有改变/以往的每次路过都是晴天/
想起我们有过的从前/泪水就一点点开始蔓延……每当我闭起眼/
我总是看见/
你的诺言全部都会实现/
我亲过你的脸/你已经不在我身边/
我还是祝福你过的好一点/ 断开的情线/我不要做断点/只想杂睡前听见你的蜜语甜言……”

*断点- 张敬轩 Hins Cheung’s Song Lyrics*

Flash制作得有点粗糙，可我那憋了很久的眼泪还是滴了下来，画面的结尾还有一行行的小字。

“想听你说爱我，一声也好；
想接受你送的玫瑰，一朵也好；
想再多点时间爱你，哪怕只一天；
可是现在，我的手都已经好颤抖，好想再见你一面。”

我一个人做在漆黑的房间里，终于大哭起来，我就那样错过了你，我最爱的女人，还来不及宠你，还来不及实现诺言，还来不及让你做我最美丽的新娘。
该死的dota，我连你最后一面都没见上，我真该死。
是的，我终于明白了你是最重要的，可惜你不能在等我了。

今年清明没下雨，我放弃了dota，做了白领，我一定会要你做我最风光的新娘。
“生日快乐，小傻瓜。”
每日礼拜我都会来这里，我只想和你说说话，纯白饿墓碑宛如你的纯洁。微风像你的发丝轻佛过我的脸，想念我那依然最爱的你的笑脸。
朋友、家人都惊讶于我的改变，我不抽烟了，不打dota了，不上网了，养了一只和你一样可爱的小狗，像当初我们说好的那样，叫它诺儿，我只想再和你说说话，再送你最美的玫瑰。

_My Maple_

2009-08-15T02:01:00.000-07:00

World : Fornax
Job : Hero
Level : 152

First of all , i'd like to say i'm a mapler [ shown within the pic ]
i'm semi-active but feel free to post some comments about it.. =)
feel free to add me in game too =)

~ Have A Nice DAY ~

_Maths Test Day_

2009-08-14T11:19:00.000-07:00

Never have been so serious about maths before..
I've used full time to do this.. BUT still have 6 question blanks..
I've blew it.. but i've tried =)
Good Luck to all ~

After Maths Test..
My friends and I still have the mood to go CC..
o.o
Thanks to baba~ always seduce people go CC.. ^^
anyway.. have a nice day today though.. very satisfying.. =)

=) Thanks All Who View My Blog !

_Very First Post_

2009-08-14T11:12:00.000-07:00

Cant believe that i've created a blog during midnight..
Since i have nothing to do..
Just to create a blog to share my life experience..
Enjoy Your Stay =)